There is a musical that Kevin and I love that goes in reverse time called "Merrily We Roll Along." It starts with the ending. A sad miserable man in the musical business. The show goes back in time until he was a young idealist kid, just starting out. As I was going through ch. 2, the title song kept running through my head....'how did you get here from there?'
My whole life I thought I was fat. Kills me when I look at pictures and see how fat I was not!! But, if you want to see how fat I got (okay I worked hard for that rhyme) check out my facebook photo album called 'tracking the loss'. My weight started piling up when my parents divorced. Then I lost and gained as I was happy or depressed in my life. Very situational. So, how did you get here? And really think about it? Study it. Go through pictures, yearbooks, etc. Have you truly always been heavy? Very few of us have. Did you get heavy after kids? After marriage? Maybe you are not even heavy, but just know you have an unhealthy relationship with food? People with eating disorders (anorexia, bulimia, and such) maybe thin but have very unhealthy relationships with food. So when did your issues start?
I bet we all have one thing in common. A feeling of powerlessness. Lysa used that word on page 28 and it really jumped out on me. I used to think I really am in control of my life. But food was that one thing that seemed to control me. Okay, then I had 5 kids over 6 years and realized I control NOTHING! But seriously, I wasn't joking when I told someone that food was calling me from the kitchen. It seemed audible!! I need God's voice to be that audible. But, really, I spent more time with food than I did with God, so guess which one I could hear?
So, read chapter 2, preparing to be offended by it. It is tough. But first, ask God to open your heart to it.
Assignments:
~Mark the scriptures in this chapter in your Bible (if you are one who cannot bring yourself to write in your Bible, use post it notes)
~Reread this chapter Tuesday and Wednesday this week
~Answer the questions at the end of the chapter and discuss in comments
~Continue to use facebook for accountibility
I am really struggling at this very moment. I am checking my son into a psychiatric hospital after he shoved me numerous times this morning. I REALLY want to ER right now. It would be so easy to stop on the way home and get something. If anyone reads this in the next few hours please please pray for me
ReplyDeleteI just read this Melissa and praying now!
ReplyDeleteI have to say I haven't been doing the prayer prompts that Lysa talks about. I really need to do that as I know I have been munching more than needed. For the questions in Ch. 2, she talks about the our relationship with food and what we feel we are powerless to stop. I had to put mindless eating and stress eating. I will walk into the kitchen and just open the cabinets, even if I'm not hungry! I do want to be a healthier eater, and lose some weight. My body is starting to ache from the extra weight on. I know that it isn't' going to happen fast, I just need to stay committed to this!
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